The Future …

woman in black long sleeved cardigan

Some days I feel like I have come so far, done so well

Since a year ago, when my world literally ended for me.

But then, I get a heavy feeling in my gut and the bells of doom kell

Their heavy tolls, awakening me to the emptiness within my heart.

I look around and watch sadness creep in like waves

Through my soul, my mind, my body, showing me the grave

That I do not have the courage to visit.

How do I keep the feeling of accomplishment and resist

The bells that ring in tandem to random thoughts of loss?

There is no way to shine from heaven the unknown gloss … of forever, together.

Deborah A. Bowman